HISTORY

WHY AND WHY

Jean England

At some stage in the life of an FP two questions must demand serious consideration: why am I an FP and why do I remain one? I would like to examine these questions in the light of my own life, which I recognize to be that of a fairly orthodox FP.

I was a member of a fairly large family containing four sisters. My first experience was about the age of four or five, a time I can fix with reason- able accuracy because we changed homes when I was about that age. On that occasion I wore a pair of my sister's knickers all night in bed, and found the experience so thrilling I was loathe to take them off next morn- ing. Surely I was already an FP at this youthful age, to judge from my characteristic reaction to the undies. My only other childhood experience was when the time came to get out of my infant's petticoats and into trousers. I cried my heart out long and loud, and I can still recall some visitors consoling me with talk about "being a big man, etc." I felt wretched at the change, and miserable for a long time whilst in trousers. How is it that I derived such pleasure from wearing feminine undies at such a tender age? I would say I was at that time already an FP, so what was the cause?

I have no further recollection until my college days when I began systematically wearing my sister's corset, knickers and silk stockings under my male wear. I got so attached to them that I found it almost physically beyond me to take them off at night or at other times when necessary to avoid detectionl

Following the usual pattern I was becoming dissatisfied with such half measures and later I was able to take advantage of certain set occasions

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